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musings on stillbirth, grief & hope

Always missing you, Abby girl.

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What if?

I get it, I know it’s uncomfortable to talk about babies dying. The truth is, it happens. And I want to keep talking about it. And here’s...

Hope Mommies Retreat

The article I wrote for Hope Mommies about the incredible experience I had at their retreat in March... A few months after Abby died, I...

One Whole Year.

It was only 366 days ago that we were excitedly planning your arrival. Friday, July 13, 2018 started like any old day. I had an early...

A sad God

As with most things in life, parenting is a balancing act. Some call it picking your battles --- and those battles, in the world of...

Sharing You

A few weeks ago, sweet girl, your Daddy and I got to share our story at a perinatal bereavement training at Lankeneau Hospital. I've...

Mother's Day Minus One

There is a verse in Genesis that talks about pain in childbirth. The NIV version, “I will make your pains in childbearing very severe;...

39 weeks

39 weeks. 39 weeks is the time we had with you, and today, its also the time we have been without you. 273 days. We are without you here...

Ten Times

Maybe you've heard of the "back is best" campaign? Let's just say that I, probably like you, slept on my stomach when I was an infant....

A Loose Stallion

There is a large heart set before me, behind it a vast plain. The plain is empty, vacant, a blooming shrub here or a hurried creature...

The Valley

The air spat out as I hit the bottom. This valley is darker, lonelier than I had imagined. The heavy fog covers everything, it wraps...

Six months without you

I'm going to keep telling your story baby girl. Your life mattered to me and your life mattered to a lot of people, as some good friends...

A Hopeful New Year

In 2019 she was supposed to turn one. She would have taken her first steps, said ‘dada’ probably before ‘mama,’ and her cute giggles...

5 months without you

Losing a baby changes your perspective on pretty much everything. Someone mailed us this card the other day. Now, with a new perspective,...

Grief and Grateful

Four months. . I took two pregnancy tests one year ago on Thanksgiving Day. But, your Dad and I already knew about you, sweet girl, my...

Three months without you

Three months feels like an eternity without you and a second since we left you. Sometimes I still forget you aren’t here. We should be...

Companionship

I feel for you people. I've realized lately that part of what is hard for you is to watch someone like me in so much pain. As a culture,...

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